You may have noticed, over the past several weeks, I have been really struggling with a feeling of unworthiness and a lack of direction for my life. There are things I believe I should be doing. However, guilt and condemnation hit my face like the chilled air on a frigid winter morning. Sharp and bitter, the fear stings so deep that it is hard to breathe. I once again slam the door and hide thinking “Maybe tomorrow will be a nice day.” Regardless God is still encouraging me to step out. Bitter cold air or nice sunny day; HE has designed me to go.
Listening to a sermon titled “30 Days” the Pastor asked what you would do if you only had 30 days to live. Would you change your relationship with your spouse? Your children? Maybe a family member? Or perhaps a friend or co-worker? How about your relationship with God? As he asked each of these questions I found myself nodding yes to each of these. The fog of guilt and condemnation started to roll in again. Along with of the feeling of failure. The Pastor then lead us to a scripture that helped put things back in perspective.
However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.
I want to experience everything God has for my life. I want to finish the work He has assigned for me. I want to be a living testimony of His wonderful love. I want people to see God’s forgiveness and grace through my life and restoration. I don’t want to be ashamed of ‘who’ I am in Christ- my personality or the way I think. God knows me, Georgia, faults and failures. He knows my heart and loves it as well.
You may be familiar with one of my life verses Ephesians 2:10. I cherish and stand on this piece of scripture. But today I am standing on the verses 8 and 9 too.
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
I have several opportunities open to me for next week and I would like to ask you to lift me up in your prayers. I am seeking boldness to step out and let God use me as His vessel. To be the testimony that He wants me to be. Pray also for protection, that legions of angels would surround me, keeping the enemy’s words from destroying God’s plans.
Thank you and God Bless YOU!