Have you ever taken time to really study for a test or exam, and then feel totally unprepared once it was time to take it? Well that was me a few days back. It wasn’t an exam I was preparing for, it was an interview.
I was blessed to have an interview last Thursday for a different position at my current place of employment. The confirmation email that I received of my interview time had also informed me that I would be tested in a couple of areas. I was thankful for the extra time to prepare.
During the time I was studying for my interview I thought I was also in prayer about it. Asking God to give me wisdom, but in reality I was trying to find wisdom online. I mean, what does God know about purchase verses lease agreements, right?
Unfortunately, like everything you can search online, there were at least 10 different arguments of why one is better than the other. I was trying to get good direction but only ended up overwhelmed and confused even more that when I originally started.
Luckily I had a friend I could call, and he explained a few things to me. I had even interviewed an accountant at a non-profit organization and was feeling pretty confident that I had a good understanding. Bottom line, it just boiled down to some basic common sense, and that I have.
Though when Thursday morning arrived I found myself scrambling around in my office looking for my notes to study a bit more, but I could not find them. The understanding that I felt I had the night before was lost, along with my notes. Before I knew it I was behind schedule and didn’t even get to have my devotional time. As hurried to get around for work, I started to ask myself why I was even doing this.
Now up to that point I wasn’t even getting nervous about my interview. I had confidence that God had my destiny in His hands, remembering what He asked me 6 months prior; ‘Do you trust me?’
Looking back it is amazes me how over a short few hours that morning I had turned from a confident woman of God to an insecure mouse wanting to hide under her desk.
With all that preparing and studying that I did, and even with all the prayers that were being said on my behalf, I failed to do one thing. The most important thing of all, I forgot to ask God to be with me in the interview.
Usually, when I have my quiet time in the morning, I tell God how thankful I am that he is with me, and that apart from him I can do nothing. I do this more of a reminder to myself; that the only reason that I am able to do the things I do is because of Him. I don’t say it for God’s sake; I say it for my own, so not to get so prideful that I fall on my face. Or, on the flip side, I don’t get so intimated that I don’t even ‘try’.
Sitting in that interview I could not figure out why I was so disoriented. I had a hard time articulating; it was almost as if I threw all my words on the floor and picked them up randomly to form my sentences. The testing time I was at a loss, and I had to read and re-read several times before I even understood what was being asked. Once my thought processes started, my time was up. Ahhh!
So! You may be asking how my interview went. Have you ever felt like you were standing in public with your pajamas on? Well, like that.
However, I learned a valuable lesson; with all the preparedness that I can do, if I don’t ask God to be with me I won’t be prepared at all.