For me personally I cannot go out the door in the morning without spending time at the table (so do speak) digesting God’s holy word if I am to be Christ like; loving others unconditionally, be forgiving, and extend grace. If fail to focus on the behavior I am to have I could very easily act in the wrong way- default in the sinful nature.
Let me explain the sinful nature. It is not just those ‘real bad’ things that we automatically think of, like murder, or robbing a bank. In Galatians 5 it reads that the sinful nature can be having jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambitions, or even discord. So yes, if I don’t guard myself and feed on God’s word I could very easily fall into any one of those traps.
Well, I have a confession to make. The past couple of weeks I have been really struggling and could not figure out why. I would enter in my office every morning for quiet time with God, but, I would leave feeling pretty much the same way. Though I didn’t realize it at the time, I wasn’t spending time in with Him.
Disappointment had crossed my path, yet again and I was telling myself all the things I know to be true but it wasn’t connecting with my heart.
Then one morning, with my heart was broken beyond description I asked God; ‘What am I doing wrong? Why can’t I shake this? I am spending time with you but I am not feeling your peace.’
With that question I instantly remembered the times that I had made breakfast for my kids before school, a good nourishing breakfast. However they did not have time to talk with me about what their day will hold (tests, specials, or after school agenda’s) let alone eat something. Either they spent too much time getting around, completing assignments that need to be turned in, or just hitting the ‘snooze’ button on the alarm clock one too many times. Whichever the case would be, they ended up grabbing a piece of toast and rush out the door as they yelled; “I love you mom”.
That was me, instead of spending quality time with God and sharing with him my disappointment and reading scripture. I ended up being busy doing too many things that I end up just reading a short little devotional. Don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with a devotional (piece of toast) every now and then, but nothing compares to reading Gods word daily.
Once I stopped being busy and got honest with God (and myself) and read scripture that had encouraged me was I able to shake the sadness, and disharmony within myself that I was experiencing.
Moral of the story…
Toast is okay once in a while but nothing beats a nutritious breakfast, like scrabbled eggs. In other words, slowdown in the morning and make sure you stop at the table to eat and even have a conversation with God about things that are going on in your life.